4080 days...Gosh mom!! It was too early for you to go. I know it is my fourth year to commemorate you here at my blog. And no matter how silly and redundant I might sound, but I will always remember you, you have a special place in my heart and my blog.
Mom, once I got an email regarding my flight to the States I can't tell you how confused and sad I was! I should have been happy instead knowing that I will reunite with my husband after all but believe me it was like some one was stabbing my heart with a dagger. I realized that I would not be able to visit your grave whenever I want to! At that day to be exact I decided to go and visit the grave for the last time :(
I cried like a baby, I cried and missed you so bad! I felt ashamed because I was going to leave you behind. Mom, these feelings are keep killing me. I didn't stay there by my dad's side. Two years ago I wrote you a letter complaining about my dad's refusal to my marriage and now I blame no one but my self. I left you and left him I left you both! Would any one of you forgive me for what I have done? Even if you don't I still understand.
Mom I took a picture of your grave and I want to post it right here at my blog.
I know that my step mom is with dad and she is supporting him but still, neither me nor my sister are there to mitigate his pains.
I immigrated to the States joining my husband. I came here with all the memories. Mom did you know that your brother passed away last month? Of course you know, he is with you now!
I am controlling my tears now and it is very hard to do so. I can't stop thinking of you and I will never want to.
Mother day comes and ends, but I have no concern about it. I want to isolate my self when that day arrives, don't wanna read or hear about this event.
Mom, here in America I have seen a lot of sons and daughters whom have dumped their parents. Two of my neighbors are old moms living by themselves. No one visits them. My heart aches for them. Their children don't appreciate them, what a waste!
Mom I wonder what would have been like if you were alive and witnessing my departure to another country? I am sure you would have wanted to come over...You were brave enough to endure the pain and the tumor for three years. You never gave up you wanted to live as much as you breath just for us( dad, me and my sister). If the cancer was a man I would have killed him cuz he stole my mom from me.
Rest in peace my angel, we will meet one day.
Love you always and forever.
Your daughter
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Marsho, it made me cry, and it is the first time I cry silently, I just dont want my little sisters watch my weakness now, and how hurt I am.
Marsho, I believe in death as how I believe in life, but I just hate death, and love life.. death steals many good people..
every time I contemplate, I come to an end with realisation that the last station for every mother is paradise.
Marsho, its another time I feel of a great love.. I miss her, even though I keep looking into her eyes, talking and singing to her, I feel i miss her..
The damn thing is my mom was sick of cancer too,doctors say it is ok, she responded to medicine, but everybody says that all the ends are "death", I just don't want to be away from her, not even for a second! :(
Marsho, May your mother rest in peace, and May you both meet in paradise in the end.
take care of yourself and live happily, just like how she wanted..
Your mother is free of her grave insha'allah, so you didn't leave her. And her love for you means she would probably want you to be in U.S. right now, with your husband, rather than sitting at her grave. You don't forget someone just because you are not right at the grave. Not being right at the grave does not stop you from loving her, remembering her, talking to her, etc. Insha'allah may you find peace.
They're right Marsh and without even knowing your mom, or your dad, I know what they want for you. I'll miss my mom til the day I take my last breath but I'll also remember her with smiles til then. Remember happiness is not someting we find, it's something we make. Big ol' hugs to ya, Solo
Ecclesiastes Chapter 7
A good name is better than precious ointment; and the day of death than the day of one's birth.
It is better to go to the house of mourning, than to go to the house of feasting: for that is the end of all men; and the living will lay it to his heart.
Sorrow is better than laughter: for by the sadness of the countenance the heart is made better.
The heart of the wise is in the house of mourning; but the heart of fools is in the house of mirth.
Dear marsho, i am really sorry for your lost , and i think you are so brave to be able to share your feelings in your blog..
i am sure your mom in heaven feels proud of you, you are smart, brave, beautiful woman..
Your post made me really emotional, i pray that god will protect you, and protect all mothers, give them health, and cure the sick ones, i pray for that every single day..
love
sunshine
nol words can help!
i lost my dad a year ago and still feel the need for him, still see him in my dreams, hope of resurrection is one of great gifts of God.
take care
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Hello Marshmallow,
Speaking of remembrances, today (Nov. 10) is the 34th anniversary of the wreck of the Edmund Fitzgerald. They rang the bell 29 times at the Mariners Church in Detroit for each life that was lost, as the ship went down in Lake Superior (the big lake the Chippewa Indians used to call Gitche Gumee).
Gordon Lightfoot, a famous Canadian singer recorded, The Wreck Of The Edmund Fitzgerald in memory of the tragedy, and it became the Number 2 song of 1976.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5l3x_VoF3wo
very special post it made me cry so hard.
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My dear readers,
Thank you all for your visit and sharing your thoughts and words with me.
God bless you all
Marsho
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may God shower your loved ones with his mercy and grant you the power to plough on in this life.. I feel your pain Marshy.. I really do..
Dear Marsho,
It makes me so sad to know how you hurt because of the loss of your lovely mother. I am sure she is happy to know that you remember her so well. I am sure that if she had the option to let you or your sister go and her remain here on earth she would have wanted to go and let you remain. Just remember that she is now in Heaven with our Lord and Savior. Some day when our life here on earth is done we can join her for eternity there in Heaven.
I love the beautiful picture you posted this year. She is a lovely young woman. The Crosses on the picture are lovely. Thank you for posting them for us to see.
You are a wonderful daughter. I hope your new life in the USA is going well.
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