From that time on until today’s date I long for embracing my mom, my wistfulness is waxing as the days go by. I know I can’t do anything! I am keeping on visiting her grave every year but that is not enough at all, I visit her grave on her memorial day, taking some flowers and candles with me, and while I pray, the epitaph that is set on the back of the grave’s stone grabs my attention, dad had written it two days after she passed away, he eulogized mom with affecting words…
I remember my commemorating post of last year, I was talking to mom and telling her about the man who I was in love with and how dad was against the whole idea of marriage…
But this year I have some good news for you mom. I got married from the same man.
Every one was happy for me mom. But let me tell you something which I haven’t shared with any person; I kept it to my self.
Although I was happy and excited for my wedding, but the night before the big day as I was going to bed, I cried with silence I didn’t want to grab others’ attention. I cried because I knew that you would be missing! I missed you the whole time while I was preparing for that big day, but what hurt me the most is your absence during the wedding ceremony and during the party, I was imagining that you and dad would walk down the aisle and take your places while waiting for me to walk in next! When the church pastor recommended of exchanging the rings, I was talking to you within my heart and asked you for applaud.
I guess no no I am sure that you were there contemplating from above and holding up your chin with both hands. Did you like my dress? Did you like every thing during that day? I felt blessed mom, and I am always because I am your daughter and I am so proud to be raised by you and dad.
Rest in peace and enjoy your infinite inhabitation in heaven.
Love you always mom.
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It was beautiful last year when you wrote to your mum and as poignant this year... Im sure she knows all you do, my son lost his father and we cling to that belief, that they are watching nearby....
sorry ive been absent for a while Marsh, hope all is well...Abbey
Dear Marsh,
I am sure that your lovely letter last year and again this year really made your mother happy, as she looked down on you from Heaven. She did not want to leave you but her time on earth was finished and she had to go.
I love your remembrance of her also. I hope that my son will remember me occasionally when God calls me home.
You are a wonderful daughter. I too am very proud of you.
MM, Im sure your mom was right there in your wedding, watching over you and blowing you kisses. Im sure she was smiling and glowing with happiness at her daughter's joyous time.
Hello Abby,
Yea, it has been a long time, as a matter of fact I was reading my letter from last year and was reading the comments as well...I saw yours under "Gale" name...Thanks for sharing your words...
Hi Wayne,
Well I pray that you live way too longer hereby your son will gain more experience from you. May God be with you both :)
Hello NIW,
Yes, I am sure that she was there, I really am :)
Hello Marshmallow,
Heaven is always with us.
It's only three feet (1 meter) away, some believe.
Just inhabiting another plane of existence.
So, your mother is very close to you, still.
So, don't fret.
The Earth plane is a very heavy existence.
Heaven is very light in frequency.
Time in Heaven, is also very different than earth time.
For one thing, past, present, and future are as one.
For another, time in heaven moves at a much faster rate than earth time.
5 minutes in Heaven is akin to years on Earth or so.
It's similar to time as experienced by ghosts.
6 months of earth time can pass with a nap for a ghost.
We live in a multi-dimensional universe.
Some of the dimensions are inhabited by dark entities and tricksters, what you in the Middle East call Jinns.
These entities are mimics. They can impersonate loved ones and can be dangerous and possessive.
So, if you ever want to get in touch with your mother in your dreams, always say a prayer of
protection before hand.
Usually, those psychically inclined, invoke the white light of God.
Any ways Happy Halloween, Marshmallow. We had 71 Trick or Treaters here.
Marshmallow,
Did you see the Saudis held a Goat Beauty Contest?
And the goat that won, isn't even that hot looking.
Beauty Queen Goat
Marsh I know your mom would be very proud of you. She still lives on in you. I don't have to know your dad to know that he is too. Just remember that in his heart, you will always be his little girl. I miss my mom too, and I will until my time here is over. Solo
Dear Marshmallow
Greetings to you in the name of our precious LORD, Jesus Christ!
It is almost ten years now since my Mum went home to be with the LORD. She had only been born again for three months when she died of cancer. The greatest miracle is salvation. The best is yet to come. We will spend eternity together!
I pray that GOD's presence will be with you to encourage and strengthen you and HIS Holy Spirit is your Comforter.
God bless you,
linn
P.S. Give thanks in all circumstances, for this is GOD's will for you in Christ Jesus. (1Thessalonians 5:18)
Dear Marshmallow...
I have teadrops in my eyes... I feel pity but we should accept that and appreciate what we have now.
I still remember your post in the last year, I told you I'm sure she feels you and watching over you.
It is true that you can't see her and touch her, or feel the warm of her hugging.
But in the late hours of the night, and while you're praying, listen carefully, you'll hear her whispers with your hear beats, say I love you Marsho.
She is in your heart, and always will be.
take care marsh
Hi Mr. Ghost,
I don't know from where you obtain all these info about ghosts and earth and heaven? Plus Queen of Goats, hahha...
Hello Solo,
Yeah even after I got married to him I am still his spoiled lil girl :)
Hello Linn,
Wow your mom got the ticket to heaven as she was born again in Jesus before she passed away!! That is cool...absolutely we will me them in heaven but we will have to keep on our strong faith in God and no matter what bad circumstances we will face; we should not let the devil to deteriorate our faith in God.
Amen I am sure it is God's will
Thanks for your encouraging words, may the Lord bless you and watch over you in Jesus' name...
Hello dear XOXO,
Don't cry please, I intended this year not to make my readers cry...
Exactly we should appreciate what we are now and be grateful always to God.
Thanks to you
Dear Misho,
Yes I have tried doing that at night right after my prayers, I heard her...but what bothers me is that I don't dream of her :( I really want to see her in my dreams.
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