I keep thinking my writing is nothing but crap and isn't worth reading especially after -all of a sudden- I forgot the tremendous amount of pronouns and vocabulary I used to know!!
May be I'm concentrating too much on making it perfect. Or may be there is no subject left any more to talk about especially about my country, as the situation is improving and prospering even if that progress is taking the slow motion.
Getting started is probably the most difficult thing for anyone; I do have a hard time filling the blank page with words, and not only words but words that affirm a strong beginning and motivates you to approach to a suspense ending.
Once I returned to my normal life, I was not planning to write about my wedding at all, I hate to surf into details that are mostly known to us; wedding ceremony.
Ever since, I am thinking of different stories and subjects to write about, but I don't know what is that thing which stop me from writing? Is it the hot weather that we experience every day? Is it because I am missing my husband and can't keep going without his motivation? Is it because fall?
Humble note: I do not like fall or autumn as our English brothers used to call! Because every thing falls and dies in this months, not only leaves but people…accidentally or incidentally by the end of every year we lose some people we know…plus, I have that sad feeling when I look at the leaves falling down, looking at the flocks of migrant birds leaving the country and looking for another warm place, also I get sullen when I see sandstorms and dust every where covers every thing around us. it is a gloomy feeling, don't you think?
These scenes remind of how I used to start school in every September in the last 20 years. I remember very well that the weather wasn't as bad and hot as now, it was cool and pure, no dust at all…
I recall my enthusiasm as the school starts, I was getting ready to fold my books and prepare my stationary, I was eager and my ears were wide open listening to every single word that the teacher has to say…I love study.
One of the most things that stuck in my head is the scent of the first rain drops in autumn, when the rain drops fall and mix with the sand and the gravels, you get to smell a very nice scent which indicates to the beginning of winter…
When winter gets closer and the weather changes to colder, I love to spend extra hours in bed cuddling a teddy bear (when I was single) and listening to the eerie sound of thunders!!! now I wish I do cuddle my husband instead but I know that I will never get to do this at least this winter, because he is away from me now…hope to have this opportunity next winter in a frozen country, Eskimo, Arctic Ocean no matter where as long as I will be close to him God willing. Not to mention drinking a hot coffee or a cup of tea (not Lipton for sure), I don't find the tea in teabag is tasty at all, I love to make tea with my own teapot, leaving it on a low fire for 15 minutes and then drink…
While I am writing these lines I looked through my window and contemplated the hazy weather, faugh!
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Oh see, you just wrote!
I love autumn; here the air becomes crisp and cool, the leaves change colors, first snow comes. I don't see it as death, for it is all part of a cycle. Besides, I don't like hot weather.
As for writing, vocabulary doesn't make writing, but letting the heart free to explore does, fyi. Just relax, let your heart free!
Glad to see you posting!! If you and hubby end up in near the Arctic Ocean you won't be too terribly far from me ;) Our leaves have already started changing colors and started to fall. It's also been raining a lot. I hope you'll find things to write about, but I also feel that I haven't had much to write about lately.
I know what you mean MM. I share the same sentiments, especially the day you wrote your post, it was an awful dusty, thundery weather. I have a phobia from thunder so you can imagine how i Felt :(
The thing I love about your posts, they come from the heart. So just continue writing. Writing from your heart..
Take care MM
Inspiration is kind of like the the oceans surf, ever changing. Such is life. Just go with the tide Marsh.:) Solo
MM: Whatever you write, we will read. Your posts are always worthwhile reading. Maybe you should ask what we might like to hear? If you feel like getting a little political, I'd like to know what you hope to see happen in the upcoming(?) provincial elections. I'm sure many would love to hear of your wedding. How about what must be a favorite topic for you, a little about your new husband?
Joe
Hello Marshi how are you? you don't like fall? so what about winter do you like it?
fall is the time to renew everyting, trees start to renew its leaves, unless you had bad memories in this season, so you have the right to hate it.
I hate summer, it is hot, hot, hot and hot.
while in winter I can drink hot chocolate and wear my favorite winter clothes! and I have good memories in winter as well..
keep on writing Marsho, I do sometime have no mood to post, but I will never give up.
Inshallah you'll meet your hubby as soon as possible.
take care
For someone who doesn't feel like they have something to write that was a really reflective post. Nice job! And don't worry, even great writers have trouble staring at a blank page as they ponder if they really have something worth saying. You do! We all do.
I like Autumn, it's the winter that gets brutal with the all cold weather.
I haven't been here for a while. Nice post, and I love the layout of the blog. It's really good! Nice choice of colours. ;)
marshi,
news say one thousand christian families have left mosul, are you okay? what are you planning to do? i feel so terrible.
in support,
abbas.
Hello Marsho
I guess what you wrote proves you are still capable of writing and pouring out your ideas and thoughts, which is a good sign. In regard to inability to write, i think everybody passes through such a stage, and it may last for hours, days, months or even more, but it all depends on a person's psychological status at the moment of writing. In ur case, i think the problem won't last that much longer cuz you already wrote this article, and it was really cool and natural. We shouldn't always try to pick up words that we think will best fit a topic; sometimes we have to express things by simple words that desribe our inner status. Our articles may seem or sound a little poor but they will mean alot and their content will be even more effective. With regard to fall, I tend to calling it "fall" instead of autumn, cuz the seasons represent life in general and all the natual phenomena, and thus fall of leaves represents sunset, from my perspective; as sun rises, then centers the sky, and then kinda falls down. Language-wise speaking, meanings of many words tend to have been derived from things or aspects in life, and we can call them as "descriptive words".
good luck with writing and am sure this is just a temporary thing, and by the way you can over come such a problem by reading, cuz reading will polish and refresh your memory and enable you to restart the activity of writing.
Ali
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